A heart felt prayer.....

Being a musician myself, I often find my feelings expressed in songs that I come across. Sometimes there are those that put it in to words better than I. That being said, as a wife there have been moments in my marriage where as individuals we have experienced spiritual droughts. My heart's desire is always to be longing and thirsting after God but during one of the droughts, my husband was the one suffering. Being the "fixer" that I am, I immediately wanted to bring a solution to the situation by giving my opinions of what he needed to do or what he wasn't doing. A real knee-jerk reaction to it all. I would talk with the Lord about it, but never was I fully leaving it in His hands. I constantly was hinting to the fact that I felt alone in trying to do what was right, I felt like he didn't care or was consumed with other things.
THEN
My husband came home one day, and obviously he knew my fears and frustrations but on his own he was struggling, so he told me there was a song that he wanted to share with me. Upon listening, we both began to cry. My husband is not a man that easily expresses himself, but this song led to me to understand that he was struggling. I began realizing what was happening and that putting everything in God's hands was the only solution. Everytime I hear the song now I'm reminded of how God used that situation to offer a reality check to myself, making sure that I was and always am letting God be God, even when it comes to my husband. I know that as women, we see problems and we see the solutions. But sometimes, God has His own way of working all that out, we have to get our hands out of it and allow Him to be God and lead us by leading him...





LEAD ME
I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

"Father, please give us a heart of prayer for our husbands to be the men that you've called them to be. Lead us Lord through leading them. AMEN"